DoLL's Lyfe

2009-11-15T17:27:00.002+08:00

dearest damn diary ..
Another random day .

Sry I took soo long turh actually post &

update you .

Work had me goin crazy.

Waking up oh soo early in the morning,

But yet cumin in office soo late -.-

From 9am turh 9pm,

shucks, I'm dead den dead.
Or deader? No, not a word.

lol.

Sore throat,

'Beautiful voice',

Runny nose,

Unstoppable cough.

R.I.P -.-

Just so you know, I never thought you were a nice guy.

Yeah you mayb the one who's always been there turh

keep me standin tall. But when I came turh think of it,

Your nothin but just a piece a shit.

You had me go soo 'gaga'over our past 6-7 mnths tgr,

But I was wrong cus nw it doesnt matter.

Not anymore.

You told little things on when they 'Made me famous',

Promising that you NEVER take in their words.

So I guess your soo yesterday,

Urghs gay.

Lisen turh them. No wait, you alr did.

Oh, laughs. I 'used' you.

Dang, wtv.

I'm sry.

2009-10-09T22:17:00.005+08:00

BAAAAAAAAAAAABYYYYYYYYYYYY

I am dying already :(

I'm missing you terribly

Today's our 7th monthsary

happy anniversary dumbdumb

And i am not gonna forget this very day

silly you and me .

Baby i loves you a lot !

- JONAS -

2009-09-29T14:53:00.004+08:00

"Thankyou, Goodnight!" , Smiles.

dearest damn diary ...

My Biggest Fear : God.

OFF TURH STUDY !

TICK TOCK TICK TOCK ~

Be back when N's are over.

Wish me luck !

Miss me ((:

2009-09-23T18:09:00.003+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

Back ((: Thanks Baby , fer updatin here .

laughs , din noe my blog cud even turned out

turh be a diary fer you :p lols .

So anyw , had ALOT of things

going through my mind lately ..

I'm sry if couldn't stop whatever dat's

happening .

I'm not God . He has da rights turh

make things happen . He'll list down

da things dat is alr goina happen&as

a matter of fact , we kant change it .

Things will be falling apart , I knew it .

I just gotta prepare myself&be strong .

But whatever it is ,

Dearest God, I pray turh you..

Whatever obstacles that is goina have turh

fall on me, please please..

Don't let it happen now ..

I've suffered enough pain&I don't want

my love ones turh be dragged down with me ..

Keep me strong&give me guidance turh da correct

&brighter paths. Amin.

2009-09-20T20:57:00.003+08:00

HELLO ! JONAS here :) well basically I'm here to make BABY'S blog alive . Muhaha
Like YOU , readers would read the post i post like that . Most of the post are filled with pictures only no words to entertain you all . SOOO boring hor ! BUT Readers ! Can't blame her hor , she's busy preparing for Hari Raya this few days okay xD

Those picture just posted is about this few days , we been to Malaysia and Geylang to shop for Hari Raya clothes and stuff .
Okay . Let's talk about the trip to Malaysia first .
It's a last minute plan to go to Malaysia , during school time BABY text me suddenly ( RARE LEH hahas ) and asked me whether wanna go to Malaysia since her mum asked me to join them . LOLS ! of cos i agree without hesitating lah . It's the time where i could spend my day with BABY okay (imissherimissherimissher) ! So after school rush home and quickly get change and meet up with baby and her mum :D shop shop shop , bought lots of thing . Lots of things to carry too .
Enough i think :x . Go see those picture we took that day BELOW !

next next next . When to Geylang to shop .
When there with Baby and baby's mum then meet up with zizi and baby's god brother .
wow ! soo crowded over there , we gotta squeeze squeeze AND squeeze . Worst still , THE WEATHER IS SOOO HOT ! Everyone sweating .. pheww .. ANDAND alot of GAYS sia , but didn't manage to get picture of them . Yea the next day , which is today is Hari Raya ! But we still happily shopping till the very next morning ! OMG ! Everyone was soo tired . Baby must be very tired now uh , endure for awhile more .. Going home soon ..

OKAYOKAY ! That's all .
Baby :( i miss you badly .
Reached home and we'll RING okay ?
ilovesyou baby .

2009-09-20T18:13:00.009+08:00

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2009-09-16T21:33:00.005+08:00

laughs . will be edited soon ^^

Totally knocked out !

2009-09-16T20:37:00.002+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

Hariraya is lyk in 4days tym ..
YEAY :D but but but -.- zzzzzz
My room is still in such a mess !

Mummy : You better clean ur room before
Raya .. It's even messier den before !
How do you expect ppl turh cum turh
our hse ?!

ERNI : Alahh Mummy , they will cum into our hse ..
But just not into my room ((:

Mummy : *Pushes my head* CLEAN IT !!!
& while ur at it , clean da rer of da mess
in da hse too ..

ERNI : Mummy ......'

Mummy : Stop whining&start cleanin !

ERNI : -.-''

So as you can see , im stuck at hme fer da rest of
da week UNTIL da hse is SPOTLESS . Darn it !

Ouh & Iwas soo tired today dat I slept throughout
da whole first 3 periods in class today zzz .

2009-09-13T00:57:00.005+08:00

TAG REPLIES ((:

shud : laughs , yea , friends .. Soon mayb ?

hahaha , ur lucky you have yours . Treasure dem okay dearest ?

&& da surprise ! KANT WAIT ~~! :D

lala : Ur link-ed babe ((:

Peiling : hahaha , OKAY darla ! :D

POST :

Wohoo ~~! In case you guys haven notice yet ,

my post is now much colourful .

Now ii think iicud upload today's event .YEAY ~ :D

This is lyk WAY soo much better .

Gotta wait till Cherie Jiejie upload it first .

Laughs . Okay , let's talk abt today ..

Woke up in very early in da mornin today ,

rush-ed turh Uncle Rust's cribs turh make hym

breakfast . He's goin back turh Australia today .

Flight's at 1030pm but ii cudnt make it cus
ii gotta perform at Cherie's soo called
"Satay Night" .l Way soo many
Uncles & Aunties singing -.-
Nice BUT noisy !

Ouh damn , 1 week&it past soo fast )):

At abt1plus , head down turh Causeway Point

turh get smth fer Uncle Rust . Ouh & Aunt Cath .

She didnt came over cus she had alot work turh do )):

Bought Uncle a pair of Converse Leather Shoes @ 109.9 bucks ,

Bought Auntie White Leather Guess Purse @ 89.9 bucks .

Damn , ii spent alot today . Wanted turh go bugis turh SHOP

w Cecilia just nw but alot things came up . Mayb nxt tymm huh ?

Sry babe .

Den ii have turh leave at 5 cus ii gotta meet Cherie under

her cribs turh take my minus 1 cd . At 7 , reach-ed destination ,

BUT BUT BUT ! OMG ~~ -.-

My cd kant be played ! Urghhs ! Okay , don't panick .

Called Gerald , my guitarist , but he's at da hospital .

Granpa . Okay , den , ii panicked -.- hohoho ~

Cherie told miie turh contact Vincent .

Called hym , wen up turh hys cribs , den he had alot of

da song's version . Da piano piece was kinda nice .

But a lil' complicatin though . So he called hys friend&ask-ed

dem hw turh download dis&dat&blah blah blah ,

While miie&Emily were in da livin room practicin' .

Few mins later , Vincent came out all sweaty , [eeekkk ~!] lols ,

HE'S GOT IT ! YEAY MIIE ! omg , ii feel soo very lucky okay !

hahaha , VINCENT DUMBDUMB , XIEXIE NI UHHS :D

Laughs , performance was kinda bummer .

Hey ! it's my FIRST time . Watcha expect ?

ii sang Love Story by Taylor Swift .

At first my voice was kinda shacky .

Since ii had soo many eyes watchin miie ,

ii had turh look down on da tv screen turh

sing out my lyrics . Memorized it , yea .

But you noe , nervous uhhs .

When ii stepped on da stage , all da lyrics were

gone . PUFF -.-

Den baby came over turh fetch miie&we're off turh get supper .

BABY ! Dui bu qi wors . ii was SOO busy today dat ii didnt

even hav da tym turh text you back )): Don't tell miie , "Haiyo baby ,

nemind de larhs , used turh it lerh" .. NO cannot !

hahaha ~ Tml dun wan go w miie right ? OKAY . fine . hahaha ~!

Don't care you le . Go get used turh it :P

Cheys ~! kiddin , ily baby ((:

2009-09-10T17:38:00.004+08:00

dearest damn diary ..
Cousin Diila's here readin every word iim typin out -.-
lols . Hello ppl , sry fer not updatin . lazy , busy ,
wtv . hahaha ~! Okay yea , imiss going out w
Sister Serene ! But nw since she ...." haiiyos ,
forget miie le huhhs ? CHEYS :D meet up soon babe ((:

imiss going out turh town&shop till ii drop .
But since it's exam season , ERNI must endure
till da end of it . Lotsa things turh buy -.-
ii want it , ii get it . laughs .

Ouh&Sha , hahaha , miss you cutiepie (:
Meet up soon too ^^ hahaha ~
Somebody said she can't sing !
LIAR LIAR , PANTS ON FIRE !
lols . We'll duet sumtyms at kbox aites ?
hahaha

imiss being w my friends .
Ouh corrwctions , w my 'friends' .
Nah , idk . What's lyfe w/o friends ?
ii just hate wen it comes turh miie ,
having turh wanna treat others so great
but YET , havin my head being stepped on .
Yea you , you noe it fer urself .
idk wad wrong have ii ever done turh you .
ii have never ill-treat you or back-stab
you or whatsoever you ppl call 'haters' .
But fer all da good things dat ii've done fer
you&with you , you gave miie all ur shits .
You only wanna pretend turh be nice
turh miie so dat wad ? So dat you cud use
all my thinking as urs , & tell ppl wad ?
Tell ppl dat ur smart enuf turh think far fer ur future ?
Oops ? ii meant MY future .
Get a lyfe B.I.T.C.H .

& Baby ? sry ytd was a mess . ii blew everythin up .
Tot ii cud spend da whole day w you since it was
'Our Day' .. But alot of things got in da way .
It's personal . Things will be better .
You have turh trust miie , but ii noe you won't .
Or maybe you do , but stil , yet , it's hard .
Take ALL da tym you need .
ily&imy even more ..

Okay , iim off turh go find presents fer Aunt Cath .
& fyi , Diila's still reading every word , until here .
& here . & here . Ouh okay shuddup . ii mean it .
lols --

2009-09-09T00:58:00.000+08:00

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BABYBABYBABY
it's our 6th month anniversary
which falls every 9th of the month
it's 09.09.09
this very unique yet tough month
because of our N's level , we didn't had time to celebrate together
it's okay baby , remember there's still lots of lots of month to go
we can celebrate after N's level is over
what's the best thing was our date is on 9th of the month , in Chinese 9 mean LONG
we will LAST LONG !
but now , please please please , focus on your studies
i wanna see you promote to secondary 5 next year okay baby ?
i loves you always&forever .
♥ JONAS&ERNI ♥

2009-08-28T16:31:00.002+08:00

2009-08-28T16:27:00.002+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

2009-08-24T22:16:00.001+08:00

dearest damn diary ...
Today's paper ,
Maths was .. umm , average ? o.o
Chemistry , ii cud hardly think .
Biology , slept fer da last half&hour ..
Sigh , gave up in science .
Reached hme at 06+ , mum rushed miie
turh get ready turh break fast outside .
Had baby turh wait up at Jp , ate .
Den walked at da park w Baby ((:
Alot turh think abt .
Baby , thankyou .

Susan , thanks fer understandin miie ((: meet up soon
okay cutiepie ? loves

2009-08-23T21:48:00.006+08:00

Called Baby at 12 , jus woke up -.-

Off turh JurongEast turh acc mum turh get her

hair done (: Baby came later after dat .

Wanted turh head sumwhr further turh break our fast

but it's alrlyk 6plus . Break fast was at 0712 ?

Umm , sumwhr arnd der . lols .

Dad came turh join us later while we were

at GIANT [-.-] findin stuffs xp

Baby was all quiet after dat .

haiiyos , silly ass , scared wad ?laughs .

Mum's hair in process ...

.Almost done ii think ?? o.o

Back view ...

While waiting ..

Can you spot mum at da right hand corner ?? lols

Voala ! All done ((:

Its looks nice but she looks much older fer a 35 year old

mummy though .

Brothers , Daddy , Mummy ..

Ouhh & ii told Baby ii spotted a Dolnation Dog !

LAUGHS XD

Den dad drove Baby hme & we're hme ..

Den zzzzzz... Yawns *

2009-08-23T21:32:00.002+08:00

2009-08-23T02:38:00.005+08:00

baby ! yea , i am done :D done posting all the pictures .
HEY VIEWERS ! scroll down ~ scroll down and .. scroll down and
PICTURES UPLOADED !
only left some adjusting need anything just tell me i help you do .
Alright ! baby please please smile always okay ?
don't let anything drag you down . Anything just ring me up , i am here !
:D okay ! goodnight sweet dreams .
i loves you baby .
opps :x just one post . delete it after reading .
-JONAS .

2009-08-20T18:02:00.000+08:00

dearest damn diary ...
I fear .
Ever had the feeling dat ur just afraid of smth ?
Be it having turh see your friend(s) turh
change fer da fact dat dey might find sum1 new ?
Or when ur walking on da streets&you happen turh see a very
happy lookin family tgr ? Or having turh noe dat a family
was goina be seperated ? Or da fear of ur loved ones almost
loosin therir loved ones ? Or turh see a friendship
bein burnt down right in front of you ?
Or turh have your friendship all smashed up&faded away ?
Or fer fear dat you might lose a friend or two
bcus ur soo busy w ur lyfe nw dat you've forgotten
da ones who were always der turh keep you standing tall ?
Fer fear dat you just din't want things turh happen but have
no power turh stop it ? Cus wen you noe dat smth bad was
goina happen fer you but is good turh dem cus dey'll be happy
but you won't , all you can do is turh stand aside&pray
fer their happiness . Jealousy .
Daddy once told me dat Jealousy is = turh Love .
idk , ii guess iim still too young or just kant be
bothered turh understand dat .

Dearest God, keep me strong&guide me through da
brighter paths. Show me guidance to what's right,
& what's wrong. Show me the people who's meant to
always be in my life..

2009-08-20T16:27:00.002+08:00

Out w My dearly CutiePie ((:

Laughs , damn ! She was sooo siao uhhs -.-

iloveher larhs :D

2009-08-19T22:03:00.000+08:00

dearest damn diary ...
When study today , shant talk much .

Ouhhs fk , do you hav any idea hw angry ii am ?!
You just took it away w/o miie knowing .
Put a sock in it&fk urself upside down .
#%@#&^#&@$&*$! You're simply just inviting
fer da worst turh happen .
Hey fyi , ii tried turh cut it down fer you okay .
You noe ily . ii took ur advice . But nw ?
Change of plans , you indirectly asked fer it .
Ouhhs bloody fk ! You did this turh urself .
Best of luck on facing ME.

2009-08-19T13:15:00.000+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

Baby ?

Sometimes I wonder

how you put up w me,

especially the way I've been lately..

It seems everytym I turn arnd,

I'm either saying or doing

something I shouldn't,

or apologizing fer it.

I'm not going to give you

an excuse fer my behaviour

because there isn't any.

But I hope you know

how sorry I am

fer the way I've been

& how much I appreciate

your patience

& understanding..

ily baby.

2009-08-19T13:10:00.002+08:00

Was having dinner at PizzaHut after amovie ,

WHERE GOT GHOST . laughs .

Den mum came turh join us cus she sumwhr arnd ((:

dearest damn diary ...

eeekkk ~ prelim starts today .

English paper 1&2 jus ended .

Ouhhs&wth ? We had turh write a speech

fer section B .

& this smart dumbdumb erni thought/know

dat it won't cum out .

iim just lucky dat ii at least get turh went through

da format this morning .

So it's lyk still so v frest on my mind (:

Social studies tml , 0230 ? Or was it 0200 ?

dang ~ Must go&check alr -.-

2009-08-16T20:50:00.002+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

urghs ! As usual , cant upload any files -.- lols .
hello again . laughs . iim dying ):
2 whole days didnt manage turh meet up w baby .
laughs , sry fer not replyin ur msgs .
busy busy . Bet ur havin fun entertainin ur cousins
nw huhhs , baby ? o.o

3days left till PRELIMS. eeekkk ~!
die lh , die lh . Best of luck ppl (:

2009-08-12T18:22:00.002+08:00

dearest damn diary ...
damn ! is it miie or is blogger playing games w miie ?
ii kant even upload any files up or edit my fonts ! -.-
bear w it , bear w it ! arghhhs !!!

opps ? whr are my manners ?
ehemmm .. [clears throat]
Dearest readers , ii apologise fer nt update/posting/blahhblahgh blahh ..
laughs , anyws back turh miie . lols :D

Nlvl's coming . ouhhs , it is ?? OMG , Nlvl's COMING ~!!!
darn , iim soo goina blow it ): iim jus nt prepared&yea ,
dun think so ii can make it turh sec5 so , la la la la ~

ouhhs&ii so wanted turh put up lotsa picts dat baby had in
hys phone . But see , ii kant even post a single darn thingy !
dang ~~~ [breathe in , breathe out ~]
ouh ! talking abt hym , ii forgot turh reply hys msg -.-
poor Jonas must have been staring at hys phone waitin fer
my reply . CHEYS ~ lols . kiddin ^^ okay gotta go back turh
my msgs nw . Until den . Only God knows when .

tc ppl (: lotsa loves

"Dearest God , keep me strong ."

2009-07-26T21:10:00.000+08:00

dearest damn diary ...
1258 , ily baby

2009-07-19T18:25:00.001+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

2009-07-18T14:16:00.003+08:00

More lyk baby-sittin' day -.- lols

dearest damn diary ...
Love . Who on earth cud define in
such a way dat will a smile on my face ?

Way back der ii fell in love with you once ,

And while ii couldn’t let you noe immediately

Eventually , in time , all was revealed .

They say that when you fall into love ,

It can never last .

They say that true love grows , takes time ,

But from the time ii first fell in love with you,

My love has grown .

ii noe now that if ii had the choice

To do it all over again .

I would , without a moment’s hesitation .

Yea , there may be regrets .

Yea , there may be disappointments .

Yea , there may be uncertainty .

But wad is life without love ?

And while ii know you’re not perfect -

After all , who is ?

And while there may be things about you which get to miie ,

I love you , despite them all .

And while ii’m sure there may be others,

Considered more beautiful , more lovely , more charming ,

There are none considered by me ..

Guess you should probably be listenin turh dem huhhs ?

it's much safer way ..

"I'm sorry my friends offended her . I shud've known better ,

that if you kant accept her now , maybe just sooner or later .."

2009-07-11T21:58:00.002+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

Gosh .

ii cudnt sleep last night .

So ii had mum turh stay up with miie .

At 2am , she was at da door ..

When ii heard her cumin in ,

ii rushed turh her as tears filled my eyes .

She dropped her bag & hugged miie .

Took miie turh da dinner table & we had 'the talk' .

ii used turh hate it . But last night ,

she was my bestfriend .

Everything felt , okay .

She remembered you .

She was der turh look down woth miie as

candles you made flew off by da wind .

When you replied miie da past few days , ii knew it .

ii knew . Smth was wrong right den .

idk . ii thought it shud be fine cus

der ought turh be smth better fer you

after we came through .

Mum woke miie up , she had turh go turh work .

& she gave miie 80bucks with a kiss on my forehead ^

She told miie turh clear my mind out .

So ii head down turh town , alone .

Juying Sec was der . Dance off ?

Smth lyk dat .

Danial was darn so nervous wen he saw miie .

Chill aye bro ? You did well .

Town , was da wrong place .

Everywhr ii look , ppl walking hand in hand .

At 6 , head back turh jurong , turh get Yasmin outta

her hse xD Dinner tym .

Control station , 0727 .

Had fate wanted miie turh always

rmb you&keep makin miie go depress over you ?

You were der . Violet tee , Yellow pants .

ii wanted turh smile cus ii really kinda had my

mind cleared out .

But unfortunately , you jus walked away pretending ii

wasnt even der .

Had dinner at Swensens ,

guess wad ii had ?

Plain cold drink , foolstop .

ii was onda urged turh rain .

Was on ur page a minute ago ,

ii oticed how much ii really influenced you .

You used alot of my words .

ii smiled in tears .

"You deserved what is coming turh you. She loved you so much. Like ii said ,

ii can never be compared turh her. ii know .."

You have all my blessings . With love .

2009-07-09T18:42:00.003+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

090709 ,

Another date ,

Another month .

But wads da point anywaes ?

We're through .

Ughhs , ii simply hate it wen ppl kept

askin miie abt you .

& ii jus dunno hw turh face da ppl

who alwys sees us tgr .

Once . Once ii tot dat ii was goina regret dis .

& ii noe , dat one day ii will ..

But wen is dat very day cuming ?

Da day wen you will finally findd ur

'One Special Girl' ..

ii'll be da one beggin you turh cum back by den ..

damn ..

Each tym ii see da moon ,

You have no idea hw much it reminds miie of 'us' .

It just happens turh be dat on every 9th ,

da full moon will appear .

On every 9th ..

Baby ? ii kant believe iim callin you dat here .

But yea , baby ? Da tyms dat

ii had with you was heaven turh miie .

The one always sufferin da most is you silly ..

Sacrifices , no1 ever touched my heart da way you did ..

After Nlvl ? If by any chance dat ur really going ,

ii think ders nth ii can do turh change it .

Lyk ii said , no matter far you are frm miie ,

ii can always find you in my heart ..

iim glad dat da bonding between you&your

friends are as gud as always ..

ii smiled turh myself as ii saw ur conversations ..

ii have so much turh say ..

So very much ..

iim sry , but ders not much tym .

Thankyou , ~~baby~~SCZJ

2009-07-06T21:53:00.002+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

Breathe in ..

Breathe out ..

Breathe in ..

Breathe out ..

Okay iim relaxed now .

OMFG , WHO AM II KIDDING ?!?!

Wad 'new guy' ?!?!

G: Full, cloudy moon.

B: ii look-ed around but ii kant see any.

Sigh. Btw thanks uh :] byebye.

*Well maybe ii shud say 'byebye' everytym you try

turh start a topic. & ii tot ii wanted turh make things right again .

What a blow.*

2009-07-05T22:17:00.004+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

Boo* ! lols xD

umm , wen out with blahh blahh blahh ..

& den we blahh blahh blahh ..

We thought of spending da night der but den blahh blahh blahh ..

Den it rained so we blahh blahh blahh ..

okays , sry .

ii guess iim jus lazy turh post 2day .

Picts ? Soon . As usual , ii kant promise .

Anywaes ,

050609 , 03.13am

First call .

But ii was slping .. Yea & coughing -.-

Sry ii kant make it cus

Mum's not hme yet .

Mum's NOT hme !

Yea yea , whr cud she have gone turh ?!

lols .

Today , ur da pig again , as always .

Waking up so very late .

ii was alr outside wen you replied my text ,

ii cud sense smth strange , wad's nxt ?

Your replies were all so dead ,

ii was worried , ur causing worries in my head .

You said you were fine as you slipped ur words ,

No1 told miie wad was happening , cud dis be any worst ?

No wonder it rained 2day .

Someone is crying .

Thankyou , you got miie all freezing -.-

ii wanna always be der fer you wen ur down ,

You gave miie da butterflies ii almost collapsed turh da ground .

Why the sudden tears 2day ii have no clue .

Just hoping ii can at least be smth turh you ..

2009-07-04T16:00:00.005+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

Just wad are we ?

You talked lyk you knew everything ,

but hell you dun HAVE a clue turh nothing .

You helped miie turh be myself but you know ,

Ur outta my show .

Were you ever treating miie da same way lyk you were before ?

Or are you just trying ~~gain their pityness~~ & more ?

You made it sound lyk as if ii ill-treated you .

ii DID replied you . The problem now is YOU .

You didnt reply as fast as you did last tym ,

You used turh deny you were never mine .

Now with ur 'NEW' page ii got left behind ,

ii guess it's too late , tym turh draw da line .

We're over fer so long ,

With miie , you know you dun belong .

But who are you now , you changed .

You & ii ,

it was never a lie .

That was past ,

We cudnt last .

Me , myself & erni ,

ii tried turh move on though it was hard .

ii noe we wont be lyk da start .

iim left with ME .

2009-07-01T20:54:00.004+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

Her.

She's down but yet she's smiling ,

She noes dat ur avoiding .

24/7 coughing ,

Her voice , she's loosing ..

Tired tired , yawning ~

But she kant put herself turh slp .

Forgiveness frm God , she's seeking ..

In school.

In class ii was sleeping ,

Kant stop coughing ..

It was a hot day , very tiring .

People around.

Some were bithching ,

ii was 'fake-smiling' ..

Education ?

Oral's cuming ,

N ? Worst .
Bio was boring .

PE's tml , felt lyk suiciding .

My phone ..

It's always ringing -.-

One , he's being noce but always not replying .

The other , he's avoiding .

Felt all so confusing .

Got msg spammed again , uber annoying .

Back at hme.

Dad's always yelling ,

Mum kant stop nagging .

Brothers are againts her ,

She felt lyk suiciding ..

2009-06-29T22:12:00.004+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

Yeay , jus woke up&'someone'

basically jus spammed my phone with

their bloody calls -.-

thanks aye ? lols .

random post:

ii fear da word LOVE . Yea maybe ii may not be one the

'experienced' one but ii guess having soo many troubles&

confusions , ii might jus fall out of it ..

idk , as dey always , "Everyone deserves a second chance" ..

Well its the matter of whether we wud even wanna give dat second chance .

All da other party has turh do is jus take it & he better not mess things

up this tymee . That's not da point . Sighh , in fact ii have no point .

We have gotten closer ,

it's lyk ii've waited forever ..

Da vibrations on my phone got miie all excited .

You replied so slow&ii felt ii was cheated .

You kept reminding miie of my past .

You dunno why miie&hym kant last .

Dun be too nice ii might fall fer it ,

iim hittin it again , ouhhs damn it -.-

Sry ii got you all sick too ,

Get well soon turh you [:

12 midnoght , bet ii forget ?

300609 , Happie Bdae turh you .

~~imy though~~

2009-06-27T16:05:00.003+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

Ouhhs boy ..

Here we go again ..

What is it with these ppl ?

Kant get a lyfe much ??

Damn . MYOB , will yea ?

''I gotta live with a liar who lied dat iim ii lie.''

Serene Chan !

CALL HYM ~~~

230609-

So sry ii missed it .

Your so called 'LEGAL Day' ?

Happie Belated Bdae, My Friend ..

2009-06-20T13:14:00.005+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

Let da picts do da talknig .

[Although not really dat much -.-]

Thanks fer still being here.

2009-06-18T17:43:00.003+08:00

Dearest Baby Brother

First time turh everything .

dearest damn diary ...

Damn it ?!

Ouhhs God, wad's becoming of miie ??

People do a positive thing fer a first time .

But ii did smth dat let almost everyone down .

Dearest babe ,

iim sry ii kant help you ..

ii even blamed you fer da things dat ii have done .

its not mine , ii noe ..

But dats da only way turh help you .

ii dun have wad you need right now .

ii was never lack of it .

But ii jus dun have it .

So ii have turh do it .

ii shud take da blame fer all dis .

iim sry fer wad dat had happened

between you&your dad .

He will wake up realised dat he

will regret fer making you suffer all dis while .

Heyys babe ,

you are strong , you will always be strong ..

iim sry ii kant help you .

All ii cud do is did wad ii've done& let

my jiejie down .

ii skipped my everyday meals ,

iim not hungry .

iim helping .

Besides , you dun have turh worry ..

iim helping .

iim sry iim sry ,

dats da only way .

iim sry ii kant help much though .

Dearest baby ,

dun ask nomore ..

you dun have turh noe ..

Dis is my life ,

ii'll face da consequences

on my own .

~~ily~~

2009-06-16T13:55:00.002+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

1 month of sku holiday & now iim lyk becumin

soo 'gong' alr -.-

*wwf AtEEQAh says:
I was waiting for my 2nd cousin

*wwf AtEEQAh says:

We're going to jbp
DearestErni said
hahaha
Dearest Erni said
den wru now ?
Dearest Erni said
still at jb ?
*wwf AtEEQAh says:
hahaah
*wwf AtEEQAh says:
bkn jb lah!!
I say:
den ?!?!
*wwf AtEEQAh says:
jbp..Jurong Bird Park lahh!!
I say:
you said jbp !
I say:
woooiiiii !!!
I say:
shh !!!
*wwf AtEEQAh says:
jbp lah!!
I say:
mali giler !!!!
*wwf AtEEQAh says:
mali giler???
I say:
ehhs !?!?!
I say:
MALU !
I say:
hahaha
I say:
mampos ~
*wwf AtEEQAh says:
lol
I say:
typo error
*wwf AtEEQAh says:
dah tk skola 1 bulan..
*wwf AtEEQAh says:
spelling and bahase pn dh tk ke mane..
*wwf AtEEQAh says:
hehehe
I say:
diam ! wooooiiii ~

Dang ~ ii tot she meant' johor bahru place' or smth -.-

okays , shuddup .

laughs .

ii didnt noe ur still here turh read my craps .

Don't . Don't be too nice turh miie .

Okays . ii don't deserve it .

Trust miie .

2009-06-15T20:17:00.003+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

Today , was suppose turh meet Munching at 1 .

but she dragged da tym all da way till 2plus -.-

Sku finished at abt 12plus 2day .

Waited at da bus stop turh get turh da interchange

turh meet her .

When turh jp turh get my fav strawberry shake frm

MosBurger ^-^

tot dat dumbdumb was der .

Nowhere turh be found uhhs -.-

laughs ..

I dunno why ii kept lookiin at da tym 2day .

At 1pm , reached da bus stop .

waited&waited ...

At 01.11pm , Munching called .

At 01.12pm , da bus came ..

ii was abt turh stand up turh board da bus until ,

wen ii glance turh da back of da bus ,

ii saw you . Yes you .

ii noe we both have moved on .

We both found sum1 new ..

But still deep inside ii just kept thinkin

if you once ur song came out on da radio .

Did fate wan us turh meet once again ??

After soo long ii saw you 2day ..

Wen you appeared ii thought of da past back den ,

But why do you have turh look away ?

You said we cud be friends but wads all dis ?

Time was da cause of us turh drift apart ,

wad can ii do , if we kant even restart ?

Was having lunch at Swensens 2day wen MC shouted aloud ,

''Arghhhs ~~~ its dis song !!!! I'm yours I'm yours !!!

arghhhs ~~~ !''

Damn . wad was dat all abt ??

ii hate it . ii hate dat song so much .

But most of all , ii hate you .

What are friends for ?

Turh you , friends should be ignored

& never be faced . Thankyou .

2009-06-12T22:24:00.005+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

Damn ? Wadda hell happened ??

Turh whom this may concern ,

read it once , read it twice ,

it's all da truth , no more lies ..

To An old Friend :

I dunno what happened between us .

We were friends since elementary schools .
You were even my classmate back den ..

Bestfriends ? Wasnt dat wad you called 'us'
wen we wen out just ealier dis year in our pict ?

I dun understand babe ..

In wad damn confusin way have i ever offended you ?

I know sumhow wad happened lately
had strucked you cus wen he asked ,

you just gotta tell hym da truth .

But blaming you ? Fer my 'bloody relationship' ?

o.o ? Dats wen you are wrong .

I swear i never fking.hell.shit blamed you

fer all da misfortunes dat happened turh my 'bloody relationship' .

Cus i know dat wtv happened inder , was completely MY fault .

Yea , iim da one who responsibly tore down dat whole

damn bloody thing . & wen i did , i NEVER EVER mentioned ur named

fer da cause of it . & da other day wen i 'nicely talked' turh

you & asked you abt hym , its cus i tot we cud

go back turh being friends again . I mean , you were

right der just in front of miie . I was cluelessly wantin turh noe da truth .

So i asked . But yet ....................'

~~imy~~

To Someone Innocent ?

You called urself my jie . Comin turh miie & tellin miie abt da quarrels you

had between ur friends . I was just ur listenin ear .

But bcus of dat , I even blindly started turh dislike ur friends

after knowing wad dey did turh you .

You said you HATED her . Cus she can never keep

things turh herself . You said she & another always started bitching abt

miie . You claimed dat you had turh sumhow 'pretend' turh hate miie

just so dat you cud fit in . You blamed another fer makin us drift apart .

You said dat she always asked if you were going turh find miie or not .

You find dat irritarin ? I wasnt in ur shoes .

im sorry , ii had no idea . Wad do you take miie for ?

You wen turh miie wen dey all turn you down .

&n now wen you finally 1 of dem , you didnt call nomore ..

Its shameful wen ppl ask . So do you actually 'pretend' turh be

good turh miie all dis while just so dat you cud feed dem with

my livings & hoping you'd fit in as their little sister ??

sighh ..

To The Other Somebody :

you sum1 i dun really noe dat well .

We've seen each other almost everyday but its just

as similar turh seeing da same stranger again & again .

I find you friendly lookin . im not pretty , ur just sayin dat .

I knew you were sum1 nice . But i guess you dun wanna

take da chance turh noe miie well so you hated miie . ALOT .

Well iim sry ii kant stop wtv ur thinking .

But wad were you tryina say wen ii confused you & indirecly

trying break ur friendship up ? im lost der .

I really dunno wad you were talkin abt .

I had no idea why were you thinking wad you were thinking .

I didnt mean no harm . I just wanna make peace .

To The Older One :

I thought we've made things clear wen we were friends

back once again dat day ? You had miie soo into lyking you .

We wen 'studying' sumtyms & we talked lyk crazy .

I trusted you . Seriously .

I thought we made it clear dat wtv we had in conversation , stays

on our mind . Not lettin it out .

You hated miie , yet you pretended .

Just wad do you wan frm miie ?

I looked up turh you , i love ur smile .

I wonder why do you still keep calling my name wen you

see miie . I dunno wads on ur mind but

i noe dat wtv things ii've said , dey never stay der .

They travelled through ur mouth wen ur with dem .

I never really had da chance turh clear things out .

Everything dey heard , dey believe . Just w/o even

asking . Wad's da point of lying wen it's over ?

Story twistin was no game . Sumtymes ii did dat too .

In fact , ii did at ALOT . Fer da sake of not

hurtin sum . Not defending myself .

2009-05-21T04:38:00.005+08:00

baby?
day by day past so quickly , we been together for 2months 12days :]

please baby , dont let anything or what so ever stop our relationship.

Sorry about my past but to let you know , you'r way much more better then her trust me.

I am just a normal guy , i do not have good looks or whatever so please stop comparing yourself with others to me you'r NUMBER ONE nobody would ever be better than you understand ?

I dont care if i lost any friends having you with me is good enough .

To you friends is everything , yea i know you once lost your best friends just because of a guy . I did not ask for anything , i dont mind you spending more time with them than me i dont want you to lost anymore friends .

Stop keeping things to yourself , i always here to be your listening ear .

you'r always forgiven to what you have done , you always deserve better .

baby please , let me hold your hand again

let me be the one taking care of you

let me be the one sharing your problems

let me be the one you loves

let me be the one who keeps you warm when you'r cold

i am always yours ,

i will always loves you even if the world ends .

baby please :[ dont leave me . Dont let thing broke us up .

We promised no matter what happen we faces it together

so please baby please .

sigh .

its up to you now .

sorry for lousy english , i cant make it like poem leh xD NT what .

sorry i read all your post , i know i am the unlucky one :]

how great if i was your ex .

after today , i might be all alone again .

i . w . a . l . y . t :'[

2009-05-19T19:32:00.000+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

iim sorry ..

ii kant help it but turh

~~cry .~~

~~cry ..~~

~~& cry ...~~

2009-05-19T18:57:00.005+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

How&what else am ii suppose turh say ?

you&ii both noe dat we weren't meant turh be .

Though we see each other everydae ,

something's still missing , dun you think so baby ?

You were always so concernin ,

but you had no idea wad was happenin .

ily , yea ii really do .

but you dun trust miie dun you ?

Get this clear , ii never wanted us turh end dis way .

ii have no choice you wont leave .

You sooner or later we'll have turh say ,

things dat are soo hard turh believe .

ii noe she's way much better .

ii cant help comparing , miie&her .

3years , who am ii kiddin ?

wen ii leave you never see miie crying .

ii did alot things wrongly ,

dun pretend dat you cud ever forgive miie .

since da 1st dae we were tgr ,

you've lost almost all ur friends who really care fer you .

ii've somehow 'stolen' you from her .

dearest somebody , iim sorry . ii really didnt mean it .

though ii noe they ALL hated miie ,

but from my point of view , ii noe dey really cared .

Sometimes they try turh break us apart ..
yea ii guess dat was jus plain mean . But you deservethem&they

deserve you . iim sorry ii made you guys turn strangers .

After today , baby please please cherish ur friendship .

Friends are always always everything . ii dun wan you

turh regret lyk miie . You deserve da best . but iim nort da best .

At tyms ii jus dunno wad ur thinkin .

you may be hurt but ur jus not speaking .

no matter how sad you are , ur always smiling ,

but datt kept miie worrying .

something from da past ii draggin miie back ,

your love , your trust , nth was lacked .

it's miie , ii have turh go ,

wads important dat you shud noe ,

dat 'i.w.a.l.y'

''ii love ur smile so keep on smiling .

& lastly , thankyou fer everything ...''

2009-05-13T15:26:00.004+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

latest poem , written during maths paper =.=

I forced myself not turh look at you ,

I failed tturh endure , stll hiding da truth .

She smiled at miie lyk she always do ,

& she keeps reminding miie of you ..

There she was standing right in front of miie ,

This very girl who makes you go crazy ..

She's way better ii thought with no doubt ,

Having everything dat ii have turh live without .

These daes you weren't der anymore lyk you always were ,

I kant help but turh think dat maybe you went turh look fer her ..

Every dawn , i wait & wait ,

Asking God , "Where is our 'fate' ?"

2009-05-13T14:11:00.005+08:00

STUDYING .. cheys ! lyk real ?? laughs XDnysa says YUMYUM . okays crap=.=CANDID ! nysa's chocolatechip & erni's caramel ice-blend :P

WIPE WIPE WIPE . dearest damn diary ...

yaw ! laughs XD

okays , heyys heyys ..

lyk ii saed , ii WILL update .

here ii am ~~~

irritatin XD

anywaes , past few daes rotted myself with

NYSA MUMMY , my STARBUCKS BYTCH ! [:

LOLS . yea , not exactly 'rot .
but we do study too okays !

OMG , study ??
you didnt jus heard/read/saw dat /

la la la la ~

1 more day turh go till exams are over ..

YEAY ! CHEERS ! *CLAP CLAP*

tml , CHEMISTRY ppl !
studystudystudy !

Ouhhs & you noe in da library

[where our exam venue is , fyi] ,

everyday since da first dae of exams ,

wen da tcher told us take lyk for example 3 pieces

or blank papers ,

ii took 5 !

No comments .

cus Yingying took 8 =.=
lols . yea !

whatever fer huhhs ??

Well ii dunnoe why but ii've got soo many words

on my mind & so iim jus magically forming dem into a poem !

yes yes yes !! POEM ~~~

long tym no read huhhs ?

okays crap XD

ii'll post it later . after ii get my lunch [:

2009-05-05T18:05:00.005+08:00

dearest damn diary ...
dang ~ !
ERNI'S BACK !
awws gees , ii noe you miss miie XD lols
ticktock ticktock ~

Sry sry , rush rush rush ~~

gotta study fer tml's malay paper =.=

Promise will update real soon .

Cut short :

HAPPIE BDAE SHORT BESTIE , SHYDA !

Jeslyn jiejie , JIAYOU JIAYOU !

No matter wad , ur dearly meimei will always be here

fer you , understand ? laughs

CHARLES !

GET WELL SOON ,

loves [:

2009-05-05T17:40:00.002+08:00

Too good turh be true ..

ii wish ii never knew .

What you just saed the other day .

No actions turh act , no words turh say .

But why , just why ?

These tears always dropped turh cry ?

A smile on this face fooled everyone around .

When ii needed you most , you were neva turh be found .

Forced myself turh not think abt it anymore .

Still not a single light seen frm dat closed door .

ii searched deep in my heart turh try turh find you once again ,

recalling all da past , da things we did back den .

1 year is lyk 1 life .

How do you expect miie turh survive ?

ii noe you regret da things you did in da past ,

at 10 in da murnin 2day , may be ur last .

2009-03-12T20:26:00.004+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

ouhs gee , iim so glad ii finally manage turh find

tym turh actually post an actual post here T.T

laughs , anywaes .. yea , as usual ,

erni's been ouhhs so very busy lately

with all da sku work & stuff .

almost failed all my class test ,

why m ii nort surprise ? lols xD

DNT's really killin miie here .

So much things turh do , so little tyme .

Forced myself turh pei jeslyn turh ttsh

fer her check-up ,

had so many ppl hangin on my phone line .

gort msg spam-ed by karthik T.T .

ouhhs darn , ii gotta go !

mus rush rush rush & get back with DNT now .

turh abbreviate ,

ii regret fightin fer her .

What a liar .

2009-03-09T20:26:00.001+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

"I gave hym my heart .."

2009-02-10T13:32:00.003+08:00

Will update soon . Been so busy lately . My bad .

2009-02-02T16:10:00.001+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

Just a short post here .

Speechless ??

ii guess so .

12.29am , 020209 .

game over , the end .

2009-01-26T14:24:00.003+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

happie chinese new year!

wohoo , found my old 'qi pao' ,

or wtv you call that =.="

actually , ii dunnoe how turh spell

it in english .. opps ?? lols XD

laughs , is it too late turh wish you guys

HAPPIE CHINESE NEW YEAR ???

have fun [: loves

2009-01-20T22:14:00.002+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

Yesterday .. Last night ..

So close , so very close ..

iim just so very glad ii stopped you .

ii was ouhhs so confused ytd ,

having turh rain myself almost every single second .

You throwed miie with ur bloody attitude that AFTERNOON ,

and ii had turh mask it with such a fake smile .

my friends , kept miie strong ..

laughs , & last night , you woke miie up & stopped my tears frm dropping ...

ii still kant believe ii cried , when you were right there beside miie

when it seems lyk you just wont care anymore .

its so hard turh abbreviate .

lyk a thick book even ii kant complete reading .

baby , always remember that 'Sorry's Not Enough' ..

Remember that shining star last night ??

Things just feel so right ..

With you right there by my side ..
Happie ~~"sumthinksumthink"~~

2009-01-17T21:12:00.006+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

~~74hrs left~~

Wanted turh go dhoby ghout turh

meet mummy but she saed she

can handle things herself =.=

ii still kant bliv dat dey wud even wanna

accept Mum as a model too .

[insert fake laughters]

Well anywaes , as long as ii noe

my spot light will be bigger den hers

den its fine with miie . laughs XD

Met Jeslin at 2plus .

Was suppose turh reach control station at 1.30 .

ii made her waet fer

lyk more den half an hour XD

ooppss , my bad .

You noe miie , always being

'fashionably late' . lols [:

Had a little talk with her ,

Well ii kant say little . laughs .

Ate lunch at mac's , met afieqah & friends .

Mummy Yaya & Naz , Yat Jr & lots more .

Jeslin [BF]

a small token since she put my pict in her blog =.=

http://heart-xiingyii.blogspot.com/

Jeslin Darla , thanks fer ur advices & all .

Miss cranking up jokes with you [:

& Good luck with 'You know who' .. [winks]

2009-01-16T17:14:00.003+08:00

ღMimma Darla & Dearest-Erniღ

dearest damn diary ...

~~94hrs left .~~

laughs XD

As usual , BORING .

The only word turh describe

everydae lyfe , ii guess .

lols . anywaes , was suppose turh help

out with da cca-fair thingy , but

ii was too lazy , kant help it .

When turh da library with girlfriends ,

finished up maths hw & nort
turh 4get , DnT =.=" [almost done]

Mummy Nyysa's face gort block-ed =.="

Met this little cutie , & guess wad's hys name ?

Its's Toto . Sounds lyk my uncle's dog .

No offence . But hell yea , he's such a

cutie okays ! He goes running around in circles

& when he falls down , he'll laugh

& stands up on hys own back agaen .

Dearest-Toto

Ouhhs yea , & ii borrowed 4 books !

wheeee ~~~ okays , sounds retard [insert face]

laughs , yea , iilove reading .

errmms , can yoos believe dat erni jus saed dat ??

hahaha xP iim half way done with da 1st book

Titled :

The Girl Who Invented Romance

By :

Caroline B. Cooney

2009-01-13T18:02:00.002+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

Skuwl was uber boring 2dae ..

DnT's killing miie ,

so much work turh do ,

so little tyme ..

In literature class 2dae ,

hab a little fight with My Dearest-Kor .

Thought it wont be long but ii wrong .

We didnt even say a single word

after dat very moment .

If its ever my wrong ,

I'm Sorry

2009-01-13T17:57:00.003+08:00

Your 1word replies ,

My little white lies ..

Your empty expressions ,

go.to.hell , you dun blong in heaven .

When ii saed , "Nah , its okays ." ,

It means ders still so much turh sae ..

Sometymes we just kant understand each other .

Hiding da pain , how much longer ??

They say words are nort worth saying ,

But actions do all da proving .

Your words are always around .

BUT your actions , are nowhere found ..

2009-01-13T17:42:00.002+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

Sunday night ,

when out with Dila cousin .

She wanted turh buy her skuwl shoes so

we when turh queensway .

Found her black everlast shoes

at 58.9bucks . Dinner at swensens ,

cab-bed hme at 11plus . Had sku da next dae ,

wanted turh turn in early ..

BUT , mummy called & ask miie turh acc her fer

supper at pioneer mall =.="

So much fer sleeping 'early' ..

laughs . We ate & chat till almost 3 in da

mid-murniin . Damn .

Monday night/last night .

When jp turh get mummy's medicine at 9plus ,

Unfortunately , shop was close =.="

At first , ii was hesitating on helping her . But since she's

my Dearest Mummy , Dearly Erni

was kind enuf turh help her [:

lols XD sumone when gym , 'hys lyfe' .

When turh meet kerry , 'ah-black' & others .

Empty chats , laughters , lots of them , den 10plus ,

its home sweet home .

2009-01-10T21:22:00.006+08:00

dearest damn diary ...
When dinner with mum 2dae . .

Just gort back & iim off turh da showers later .

Soon , after this . Yea :D

lols XD

Well anywaes , had dinner at

Swensens , Dad came turh join us .

There was hell alot of ppl & we gotta

waet fer lyk as least 20mins turh get our seats =.="

blahhs blahhs blahhs ..

After dinner we when fer

a little bit of shopping .

ii wanted turh get a new bag

& Dad was lyk ,

''With so many bags at home , why

don't you just open up a shop or something ??''

He don't tell me wad turh do !

Darn ! arhggs .. Mum cheered me up then .

Saying dat she ordered some Adidas

bags frm her friend [: Hell , now she's talking .

laughs .

Ouhhs yea , ii almost 4get .

When we went turh da ladies room

turh do some touch-ups , [you noe us girls]

then outside da toilet was this major hot-hottie .

Well ii don't think that he that HOT .

But mum noticed hym first . lols =.=

& guess wad ?? turh think dat he's

waetin fer hys hot-HOT gf , OUT CAME A GUY &

they both started holding hands !

We were lyk , WTF ?!?!

okays , who noes maybe just MAYBE ,

they're bestfriends ?? But ii doubt dat .

laughs XD

ii was lyk 'EEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWW' ?!?!

ii mean , what's da pont of having a somebody who have all

that you have ?? you noe wad ii mean , right ??

No but , ii seriously don't get it .

Mummy told me ,

''Why kant they just go 'explore' something new ,

instead of ....."

Yea , you noe what she meant huhhs ??

No offence turh da ppl out there who felt offended but

iim just tryina make a point here .

Whatever it is , just ..

Be yourself .

okays , m ii helping ?? ouhhs 4get it =.="

a little 'offseen' here .

errr ? ? ehhs , no comment

2009-01-08T17:48:00.007+08:00

Ytd , 2dae & tomorrow ..
We had this 'motivational-workshop' .
We all thought it was going to be something boring zzzZZZzzz ...

But it turned out turh be great :D

We learned lots of new things & blahhs blahhs blahhs .

Lazyyy =.="

let da pictures do da talking [:

ii jus love her handwriting xD

weird name though . laughs .

In this workshop we learnt how turh exercise .

Yea , sum of yoos may be going lyk ,

''Exercise ?!?! Who da hell dunnoe how turh exercise ?!''

Hell , if ii only cud take pictures of us exercising ..

But , no phones allowed in class =.="

candid [:

Unfortunately my first picture in da canteen , failed =.="

We had lyk a 1hr break fer lunch ytd . We shud be darn happy abt it

after almost5 hrs sitting & switching class rooms

& hearing lectures . But , ii guess 1hr is more den enough :D

.
.

Chat-chatting

Public-Phoning ??? =.="

.
.

Day-Dreaming ??? o.o

OR WORST ?

SLEEPING ?! [Lesting & Ah-Xiong]

We gotta take 2 pencils on 1 hand each & draw/write something at the

same tyme . here's my master piece :D lols

Where the lame part comes .

Tips:How to get rid of headache.

Not only we learnt how to overcome it but we

also learnt which part of the muscles we should

focus on or in other words massage on

when we're tired or having headache .

Do you agree that most of the time students will feel

very tired after a long day in school/lack of sleep/too much homeworks?

Well if your stress or lack of sleep you may have

headache therefore you DO NOT

take panadol immediately .

1:Try to take your right hand & massage the muscles on your left shoulder which hurts when you pressed hard.If you feel the pain it shows that your stress & most probably due to the long hours carrying such heavy bags.

2:Then try to do it the other way round,take your left hand & massage hard on your right shoulder.Repeat it at least twice soyour blood will be flowing.

3:There is two muscles located around your neck & I'm referring to the back part of it.Try to massage it to let the blood continue the flow to the brains.

4:Next try rubing your ears or massage it the use your fingers & gently massage it around your eyebrow.These are some ways of how you could overcome headache.

Focus: Brain Gym

Do yo know how focus you are?

Try using your left & right hand

to right your name at the same

time but as a result it should be mirror image.

If your left handed try drawing with both hands

at the same time too.

[Just lyk what ii did previously in dat particular picture [:]

Well there's so many knowledge I gain today.

I'll make use of it wisely.Some points which I would like to share.

•Hydrate

•balance brain

•Think three good thing

•Plan your study evening.

•Use variety words.

•What YOU focus on regularly HAPPEN.

•We are in control of our future. [its something lyk magic . BUT NOT]

We also tried some weird strecthes .

Mdm Mush teaches us how turh do this & that & yea .. lols

**MUSHHH** xD

The resaon why we learnt this is to give a wake up

calls to muscle,get what i meant ???

Well , you guys should try some of these tips & ideas

& see if it works fer you [:

Okays , tyme fer me turh rest .

Fer the whole dae , ii felt so weak .. & guess wad ??

Hell , ii vomitted agaen . [Nort wad ur thinking Rasheed] =.="

Its lyk der are no colours in my vomit . DANGGG !!!

& & & , ii could hear my heart beating in my head .

Not literally . But , yea .. You noe wad ii mean .

laughs .

Temperature check : 39.7

Head : All spinning around .

Mood : Seriously Bad .

Now : Off.turh.bed

LOVES !

2009-01-07T19:18:00.004+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

ii apologies fer nort updating .

sigh ,

ii really kant explain myself now .

idk , waet , wad was ii suppose turh sae agaen ??

sigh , sigh ..

Just when you thought that things

are just in their right places ,

this little voice inside of you just kant waet

turh destroy everything . everything .

ii felt lyk ii almost lost you today .

'UNDERSTOOD' .

what was that suppose turh mean ?

predictions are cumiin true ,

just what if ii lose you ??

distance kept us so far apart ,

nothing's ever change ever since we started .

but ders just 1 thing dat iim always worried abt .

ur love . iim afraid ii cus ii cudnt feel a single thing .

so what does all this means ?

ii love the way you treat me ,

having to noe iim ur only 1 ..

ii love the way iim always ur baby ,

but love has always been a pain fer me .

ii love the way your words touched my heart ,

baby you really played ur part .

time has challenged us ii thought we were stronger ,

but as time goes by , we gort really weaker .

when ii didnt hear frm you fer da whole dae ,

imissyou somuch dats all can sae ..

iim really sorry if ii made you feel so bad ,

or left you alone feeling so sad .

ii hope we can make our way out all this mess ,

after all , ii noe it's jus another test .

if things dun work out ,

ii'll be the 1st turh cry & shout ,

''ouhhs damn , erni ..

you're such a useless gerl ..''

its nort you , its always me ..

tell.the.world

2009-01-03T13:34:00.004+08:00

baby : ''Just in case i die now.. ''

If its ever already stated in god's list dat ur goina die now ,

iim never ever goina let dat happen , ii gotta do smth , sumhow ..

ii'll pray turh hym so much , dat he'll exchange ur name turh erni's ,

hoping dat he'll let you go run free ..

You're such a great person , why wud he wanna punish you ??

idk wads gg on in ur mind , but ii care , ii reali do ..

listen carefully , turh my heart beating ..

''iloveyousomuch'' is all its saying ..

Baby , ii never wanted turb let you go ..

Just so you know ღ

2009-01-02T15:29:00.004+08:00

ME .

ii scream wen ii get mad ,

ii rain heavily wen iim sad ..

it's nort dat easy turh see through miie ,

but still , ii'll be who ii wanna be ..

ii treasure friendships ,

ii treasure relationships ,

ii'll treat ppl da wae dey treat miie ,

so no point 'pretending' .

ii may be 'TOO nice' turh da ppl ii hate ,

BUT if ii lyk yoos , ii'll accept ur date XD

ii throw my tamtrums wenever ii jus feel lyk it ,

yoos might get irritated but sum may get use turh it XD

birthdays & anniversaries are important turh miie ,

dun jus stand turh watch & see .

do da things dat yoos shud do ,

dont do da things dat yoos shudnt do .

LYK DUHHS =.="

lastly , only GOD can judge miie ..

hell , if ur tellin miie ur GOD , ouhhs bloody .

Been There , Done That . ii HATE liars .

ilovemybaby

2009-01-02T14:43:00.003+08:00

dearest god ...

choon seng , a friend .

who was involved in a car accident recently &

who's now in a coma fer almost 3weeks straight .

heyys dearest friend ,

you may nort hear miie now ..

ur a strong guy , or maybe man ..

every1's praying so hard fer yoos sumhow .

do yoos wanna see ur love ones crying ??

its been 3weeks nort 3seconds ..

when are yoos awaking ?

missing da tymes we had back den ..

iim sorry ii didnt get turh visit yoos ,

but ii hope my well prayers are enuf ..

dearest god , pls keep hym strong we wan hym here ,

keep hym away frm frm da rkness & fears .

dearest choon seng pls get well soon ,

in da murnin , nyte or afternoon ..

wake up , everybody's callin ur name ..

dun give up , ii noe yoos'll win this game ..

dey'll be waetin , ii'll be waeting , every1 will be waeting ..

fer yoos turh wake up , & stop us frm crying ..

lots & lots of love

2009-01-02T14:26:00.005+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

1st dae of skuwl ?? average .

yea .. laughs , class was

as per normal except dat we've

gort our class interaction

& guess who our new chairperson is ??

KERRY =.=" !!!

LOLS , II KANT IMAGINE . hahaha .

literature was great !

though lots of ppl find it uber emotional ,

turh miie , its cool ..

laughs XD wad m ii saying ? [insert face]

here's a little poem ii wrote in class earlier ..

ii stare at my watch , it jus doesnt stop ticking ..

every hour , minute & second counts .

the past mistakes ii've made , left miie crying ,

iim glad fer all da love ones ii've found ..

i may nort noe wen da world will end ,

but no matter wad , ii'll try my best turh fight & defend .

just in case ii dun wake up tomorrow ,

god pls takecare of daddy , mummy ,

baby , my fwens & even my foes ..

2009-01-01T13:28:00.001+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

ii was in a clear state of mind

wen ii saed , wad ii said .

This is why ii wanna take it back ..

ii know you're upset ,

but ii didn't mean it
But you dunnoe that ..

2008-12-31T22:05:00.003+08:00

DADDY-DEAREST ,

he's back but only just fer awhile ..

dearest damn diary ..

well 1st of all , ii wud lyk turh thank all my dearly love ones

fer ur sweet wishes & 'surprising-presents' . laughs XD

thankyou , thanks a bunch ^-^ ii reali appreciate it . loves ..

anywaes , iim noe stuck with my dearest daddy

who came here turh visit miie , damn , imisshym more

den 'so much' .. we wen shoppin in town . kant find anythin nice der .

so dad drove turh queensway , wen IKEA =.=

turh get sum new pink stuffs fer my room ^-^ lols XD

den we head turh anchorpoint &

ii bought dis pinkish kappa shoe fer 129.90 , [insert face]

pink floral tube dress frm roxy fer 89.90 ,

a small crown at swarovski [with pink srystals [: ] fer 169.90 ,

& ii guess dats abt all ?? hell no . ders more turh cum . laughs .

ii bought daddy a sweater shirt frm mum's shop before ii wen

turh meet hym [p/s with my own savings . which cost miie lyk 119.90

but ii gort it fer 88bucks cus mummy help gave miie

30% discount [ONLY =.="] . wanted turh bring hym der but

ii noe der'll be lots of consequences .. so ii'd rather stay out of trouble .

we're now having dinner at secret recipes

& iim usin dad's lappy turh blog . gettin kinda bored so , yea ..

daddy , eventhough ur ryte bside miie tryina

pretend dat ur 'nort intrested' in reading it ,

ii still can sense dat ur peeking through ur coffee cup xP

wanted turh go fer da countdown , but ii can bet dat der will be hell

lots of ppl wonderin arnd wanting turh watch da fireworks & yadda yadda .

hahaha [: we're off turh east-coast later ,

guess wad are we goina do der ??

we're goina watch the stars ..

awws & talking abt stars , dad & ii use turh watch it tgr weneva

dad came turh drop by .

Some random thing i wrote while waetin fer dad

turh finish hys coffee before we head down turh east-coast

Wad can rhyme with the sentence "iloveyou " ..

There's owaes ''iloveyoutoo'' ..

But wen you sae it i jumped off da floor ,

telling you dat ''iloveoyuMORE'' ..

But none of these sound just ryte ,

as ii write this blog quite late at nytet .

ii need sumthing that says it all ,

not sumthing big but sumthing small .

Sum sort of phrase to sae how ii feel ,

turh express wad its lyk wen my heart bcums still.

My heart has these feelings ii cannot deny,

ii have to speak truth ii wont tell a lie.

But as much as ii want to , no words seem to do ,

so ii'll end it ryte here with a simple "Thankyou." ..

ii don't understand

Why our time tgr was so small

ii don't understand

Why sumtymes you dunnoe ii fall

2008-12-29T04:15:00.003+08:00

HAPPIE BDAE DEAREST-ERNI [:

HEYYS PPL [: GUESS WAD ??

laughs , guess it urself . lyk duhhs , its so uber obvious =.="

yea , its my bdae . iim 15 ! [finally] lols XD

thanks ppl fer ur sweet text msgs & wishes [:

plus phone calls , nort turh 4get .

loves ღ

miie : damn , there are no stars 2nyte ..

baby : yoos wanna noe why ??

miie : umm , why ?

baby :cus dey're all in ur eyes ..

*blushed*

baby , tysm fer cumiin down ytd . '1st date ?' laughs xD

ouhhs god , imissyou somuch .

baby , arent yoos tired ?? cus yoos've been runing on

my mind fer da whole dae . laughs

2008-12-29T03:32:00.006+08:00

WORKING DAES :

THE.THREE.DUMMIES.DAT.II.DRESSED.UP

SOME.PART.IN.THE.SHOP ? LOLS :D

MUMMY'S.IN.RED [BACK-VIEW] ? laughs
laughs , frm da 26th turh da 28th , gotta help mum
out at her workplace . dey called it 'bring ur child turh work dae' =.="
is der even such phrase in da dictionary ? lols XD
dae1 ,
woke up at 7 , OFF TURH DA SHOWERS ~ !
waeted almost half an hour fer mum turh
get readi . [make-ups , accesories , blahhs blahhs blahhs ..
laughs , fetched a cab , off turh plaza singapura :D
yea , & den once we reached , Jerry [my 'manager']
HANDED MIIE DA MOP . ii was lyk ,
'damn ! wadda hell m ii suppose turh do with dis ??'
hell duhhs ! mop da floor of cus =.="
at 11 , da shop was officially open . lols
ii was suppose turh be da idiot who will hab turh
greet our customers with , 'Hi welcum !' [insert huge smiley] forced
iim jus too lazy turh sae it out in full details of cus .
gort paud fer lyk a 100bucks per dae .
legs r aching & sore . gotta stand almost
da whole dae frm 11a.m turh 10p.m .
sheesh ~ so much fer lookin 4ward turh it .
frowned .
ouhhs yea , & ii met lots of new fwens [:
REY [the clumsy 1] , AMY [the grumpy1] , SHAHID [the irritatin1]
DIANA [the cute.chubbie1] , JERRY [the MANAGER =.="]
RAVI [the funny1] &
SARA [MY CRAZY LAUGHING , NON-STOP TICKLING MACHINE!]

2008-12-25T20:17:00.005+08:00

MARY-CHRISTMAS PPL ! [:

SANTA GORT STUCKED IN MY CHIMNEY LAST NYTE . LOLS xD

wen it strucked midnyte ytd , ppl under my void deck

started shoutin , ''HO HO HO , MERRY CHRISTMAS !''

pathetic x__x . gud spirit but lyk hello ?

kant dey waet till da in murniin turh make such noises ?

well ii noe ii kant waet . but still , sigh . nth turh sae .

laughs laughs laughs [:

woke up at 8 in da murniin & head turh aunt's cribs turh

open PRESENTS ^-^

laughs , actually 2dae wasnt such a gud dae .

most of our relatives din turn up .

probably busy with their own business .

who cares ? spend da dae der till 2 in da afternoon .

gort a text message frm baby . awws , he's sick .

get well soon okays ?? kant bear turh

see yoos sick . loves

met mum at plaza sin , den we're off turh shop fer daddy's present [:

bought hym a green-striped shirt frm springfields

fer 79bucks x__x no comments

had our dinned at starbucks in jurongpoint . BIG . yea [:

den head hme turh da showers ^-^

here ii m now . lols

baby , get well soon okays ? better eat ur dinner . now or later ,

mus eat aiites ?? iim so worried abt yoos . & imissyousomuch ..

cover urself with ur blankey , dun catch a cold . loves

countdown till bdae : 4daes left

countdown till newyear : 6daes left

2008-12-24T20:53:00.006+08:00

on christmas eve ryte now , sumthing jus doesnt seem ryte . no
matter how much
ii try turh put awae dis feeling , it jus keep back agaen ..
ii tried turh deal with all da stress ,
& ii've tried turh deal with all the pains .
tried fixing up da mess ,
wen ii kept loosing in love , a game .
ii dun eva wanna let any1 look into my eyes .
cus dey'll only feed miie with their lies ,
& run little circles in my head .

ii kant promise not to hurt you ,

But ii promise turh sae iim sorry if ii do .

ii kant promise nort turh cry ,

But ii promise ii'll tell you why ..

ii kant promise forever ,

But ii promise the rest of my lyfe .

ii kant promise my heart ryte now ,

Because sum1 broke it the other nyte ..

ii kant promise we'll be okay ,

But ii promise that ii'll try ,

To give you a chance ,

If you promise never turh lie .

ii kant promise nort turh cry ,

For ii already did ,

ii kant promise forever ,

But ii promise ii'll always be here ..

baby its reali nort wad yoos think . he's so yesterdae . & yoos ?

baby , ur my everydae now .. trust miie & ii'll prove it turh yoos ..

though we kant see each other dat much [in fact iim nort even

sure if we cud] ii leave it all turh fate . cus iim afraid turh even

move a single step alone . yoos see ? ur baby needs yoos .

she loves yoos & all she needs is ur trust . cus yoos hab

hers now . lots of love , baby iloveyou

countdown till christmas : 1DAE LEFT

countdown till bdae : 5daes left

countdown till newyear : 7daes left

2008-12-24T20:34:00.002+08:00

dearest damn diary ... laughs , iim soo worn out ryte now ,

still in my shirt & skirt . lols XD 2dae , baby sis came turh

drop by [its been such a long tyme eva since she stepped into

her '2nd hse'] & den iim off turh da showers ! laughs [: afta dat ,

we're off turh meet a friend at lot 1 cus we gotta get sumthin

frm hym . yea , & den we waet fer hym lyk almost 2hrs & he told

dta he's still stuck in bed =.=" we were lyk SO PISSED OFF .

ii mean , TWO HOURS ppl ! wtf ?! he den switched off hys phone .

we tried turh call hym fer soo many tymes but we cudnt get through .

sister continued trying turh call hym while miie on da other hand ,

iim alr half wae dead , squatin on da floor . lyk damn ! ii haven

even had my breakfast nor lunch . der we hab it , dis friend ,

who tot dat we were reali fun turh be played arnd with .

arghhs !!!!! fuhh ! ouhhs fer god's sake , iim so mad ryte now !

remind miie agaen turh never call out hys name !

2008-12-23T12:03:00.004+08:00

dearest damn diary ... okayys , iim lyk criiously stuck in boredom

these few daes .. wen shopping with mum turh suntec ytd .

wen turh get my bdae dress [: yeay ! laughs . but it was reali tiring .

mum had miie running through alot of stores jus turh get her

a much NICER dress -.- wth ? lols XD had our dinner at swensens

with dad afta hys work .

ouhhs yea , & he's cumin back 2dae [: but ii hab no idea wad tyme .

wtv . he'd betta hurry or iim so goina miss hym too much XD
is dat even in da english dictionary ? laughs

thanks , iim reali trying turh listen turh my heart now .

turh do da ryte things . but is dis ryte ??

countdown till christmas : 2 daes left

countdown till bdae : 5 daes left

countdown till newyear : 8daes left

2008-12-20T19:54:00.005+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

okayys , ii din think dat dis wud happen ..but it did .

ii din think dat ii'd be happy , but now ii m ..

Everydae ii get more afraid

Of giving my heart away

Scared of what love will bring

Too nervous to hear the words you’ll say

ii find maself lost in you

Not sure if we're meant to be

ii see the looks that you give

And wonder what you see in me

ii don’t want my heart broken

But ii think am so in love

ii can’t seem to give up

A guy sent from above

So iim gonna trust you

Please don’t let me down

For ii am giving you a chance

To turn my lyfe around

Don’t take it for granted

Cus it might not last long

ii have weak thoughts

& my heart isn’t too strong

iim putting my life in your hands

Now it’s all up to you

ii look forward to the places we go

& the things we’ll be putting through

But remember that iim vulnerable

And ii can’t stand to be hurt

ii want to be at the top of your list

But ii don’t have to be first

Believe me when ii tell you

That ii wanna love you with all my heart

That ii wanna be here for you forever and always

This is for the start...

~~baby iim giving you my trust , pls dun dissapoint miie~~

tc while ur there . ii've missed you already .. opps ?? XD

countdown till christmas:5daes left

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countdown till newyear :12daes left

2008-12-19T20:10:00.003+08:00

HAPPIE BDAE , BABY SIS !

[baby sis & miie] smiley

I just want to say happy birthday*

I'm thankful for you sister

Each year your birthday reminds me

That I really want to say

I’m very glad I know you;

I think of you each day.
I hope you enjoy your birthday,

All the pleasures it has in store,

And because I appreciate you,

I hope you have many more!

countdown till christmas : 6daes left

countdown till bdae :10daes left

countdown till newyear :13daes left

2008-12-17T22:10:00.011+08:00

dearest damn diary ... as ben mentioned in hys blog earlier ,
yea , christmas is cumiin ^-^ well , ii shud be insertin lots of
smileys here but why shud ii ?? probably mum & dad still
wont be hme yet frm perth turh visit grand-mama & papa .
hurry hme yea ? we miss yoos so much [: ii guess iim stuck with
aunt anna & her family den .. anywaes , iim glad dey left miie my early
presents as dey are afraid dat dey might nort be able turh
cum hme on tyme . ii shud have seen dat cumiin =.=
ii thought maybe ii could celebrate it with my dearly close fwens .
well opps , ii 4gort . ii've lost mine . alot of things changed in jus
a blink of an eye ..

mummy , daddy ,

When ii think of all the things you do ,

the ways in which you care ,

ii'm filled with a sense of gratitude and pride

that is always there .

ii seldom take the time to tell you

that iim happy you're my mum and dad ;

so ii'll tell you now what's in my heart,

"You're the best that a gerl could have ! "

dearest e.v.e ,

You've always been a part of me

ryte frm the very start ,

creating treasured memories

ii've cherished in my heart .

You guys are such wonderful parts of my lyfe

because of the thoughtful things you do

that ii want you to know how grateful ii am

to have sisters as special as you.

dearest ben ,

May your home be filled with Christmas joy ,

days of happiness & love .

May each year bring to you and yours

new blessings from above.

May family and friends who gather there

fill the rooms with laughter and cheer

creating memories that grow more treasured

with every passing year.

ii hope my wish can cum true . bcus 2nyte ,

ii kant find any stars in the dark sky ..

countdown till christmas : 8daes left

countdown till bdae :12daes left

countdown till newyear :15daes left

2008-12-16T15:57:00.006+08:00

ii think of all the memories that ii wish we could replay ,

but then ii cum across the ones ii wish would go awae .

But that won't happen bcus ,

the things that have already happened are the past ,

and there is nothing ii can do about that .

And the memories that ii like ,

ii wish we can sit and talk about them .

Together ,

us ,

at home , or on the phone .

But let's wish those crazy phone calls that we use to do ,

everydae ,

after school ,

all day ,

will return ..
ii wish .

But those are all wishes

and everybody knows ,

that you have to wish on a wishing star .

But this is no star,

this is my heart ..

dear dear sisters , ii miss yoos guys more .

2008-12-16T14:43:00.005+08:00

Okays , ii simply jus kant take it anymore . stop sayin it .
stop sayin wad ? idk !? waet , shud ii sae it ?
shud ii tell da truth ? or maybe ii shud jus continue hiding
under my blankey ?? but ii never fail turh put on my act
all dis while . sigh , 4get it .. wads da use anywaes ?
well here ii m .. erni , jus da a normal average gerl who kant
seem turh accept da fact dat sumthing;s over .. the end .
der are obviously no more pages on da end of da last chapter ..
all dats left , are da memories dat dat never change .
moving on is lyk a sin .. every step ii take , trying turh run
awae made miie fall into traps which prevents miie frm
lettin go . no words cud describe da pain & hurt dat ii hab
turh endure all dis while .. wad hurts more den dis ?
trying so hard turh be happie fer someone who doesnt seem
turh be affected at all . it was all too sudden ..
but ii gotta face it . ii noe god will keep miie strong .

I still catch myself missing you ,

Wondering how you doing

and I'm still thinking of you

I wonder why you're still going through my mind

It's not painful it's just a bit sad sometimes

I feel like you left me with a disability ,

Unable to go through life without you .

Sometimes I feel solid while my inside is empty ,

Regretfully I still might love you ,

I wanna forget you really ..

Mind starts slipping ,

drifting off into day dreams about us ,

what was us and what became you and I

Our relationship had to die

Look at all the obstacles we went through together ,

Yet we both knew deep inside we won't last forever

We were stubborn and ignored our minds ,

We wanted to be together so we believed we were right

I look back at everything that happened ,

And I'm tilting my head to the side wondering what happened ?

Why did those things come up between us ,

Was it a test ?

I wonder if it was all a game to some envious team

And it was a game then tell me who won then ,

I'm ready to give it my all if there's something left

I never like to lose, I ought to be the best ,

That's why I keep going till there's nothing left

Or I'll die way after I breathed my last breath

There are nights I wake up crying

And wishing you were here

To hold me in your arms

And kiss away my tears

~~yea , da truth is , imysm . even till 2dae~~

2008-12-14T13:40:00.013+08:00

laughs , mummy & daddy wen hme late last

nyte since dey are having their reunion dinner party with

their old mates or sumthikn liddat [dun bother turh noe actually]

so we decided turh slp in their bed instead .

lols XD it rained so haevily last nyte ,

& my brothers switched on da air-con turh da

coldest of da coldest degree =.=
it was uber cold okayys .. laughs , we started tellin

each other lame-old ghost stories & stuff ..

yea , still kant slp .. took lots of picts , but others were all quite

BLURR .. only had a few nice wans here ^-^

at 4 in da murniin , ii heard snorings [nort frm miie of cus] ..

bet dey're too tired since we wen out with our cousins

hse turh play .

guess who's da 'lucky' 1 who gotta clean up dis mess in da murniin [ME=.=]
mum had a few picts frm ytd's renioun dinner .
kant put it up yet . laughs . until den .

lots of love

2008-12-12T13:37:00.002+08:00

have yoos eva hab dis feeling ..
whereby someone's name is being mentioned ..

and .. as much as yoos wanna react normally ..
all of a sudden .. yoos feel so uptight ..

yoos dunnoe whr to look .. yoos dunnoe whr to place ur hands ..

yoos dunnoe wad expression to give..

yoos feel .. lost .. blank .. uneasy ..
so .. whad kind of feeling is this ..?

whad does this person mean to you ..?

2008-12-11T20:59:00.003+08:00

dearest somebody ..

yoos hab no idea how reali glad ii m turh hear frm yoos right now frm

my msn window . ii thought yoos wont regard miie as any1 now .

after all ii've put yoos through .. trust miie , der will never be a 3rd tyme ..

ii dun ever wanna repeat any mistakes no more .. yoos made my dae almost

lyk , everytyme .. ur words , dey never fail turh put a smile on my face ..

yea , lyk ii saed . ii owe yoos alot . it takes tyme turh understand ..

sry , ii jus kant find or buy or lend da tyme now .. thank yoos fer everything ~

''keep on praying for hys misfortune.. i'll pray along with eu..''

2008-12-09T14:54:00.002+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

if dey're askin ,
den ii'll jus sae it ..
no point hiding ,
gotta face it indeed .

But ii cant deal with relationships ,

iim at a point in my lyfe where ii need space ..

iim at the point where ii want to be free ,

iim so sorry ii cant even look at your face ..

met you dat dae ,

ii wanted turh look awae ..

you gave me such a perfect smile ,

iim glad ii met you fer awhile ..

ii know ii will regret this and ii know wad iim letting go of ..

iim letting go of the best thing ii'd ever had ,

this feeling ii have is so aching and sad ..

Dont forget me your my only true love ,

But i cant drag it on ,

Its not what ii want ..

my friends r all GONE ,

and iI feel so alone and bad ..

Promise you wont be mad .

We can still be friends , ii'll always be here ..

Remember iim a phone call away .

ii cant even stand to see myself in the mirror ..

That day ii felt your pain and listened to what you had to say ,

and ii realized im not right for you .

Your to good to be true ..

Your everything ii'd ever need ,

But nothing can be perfect ..

I care for you , i really do ..

Dont say ii dont and dont say ii never did ..

iim sitting here crying over you ,

i love you so much that ii just dont ..

Please understand me

And please will you see

Your not right for me

ii guess , we arent meant to be ..

der we hab it .. laughs .. sry ii totally 4gort turh write abt hym ..

ii jus dun wanna think of da past & cry maself alone , once agaen ..

if cud measure my tears dat ii've shed all dis while , maybe ii cud

make da whole universe rain darn so heavily .. lols XD laughs .

ii've lost everything , ii wan my fwens back .. ii admit ii was rong ..

iim sry , iim truly veri sry .. it all happened so fast .. jus in blink

of an eye , avrything jus came turh an end .. why kant ppl cum & stae ?

why MUST dey cum & go ??

2008-12-05T15:51:00.005+08:00

dearest damn diary ...

heyys ya'ol .. its been such a long tyme ever since ii post uhhs ..
recently , ii gort caught in an accident , dun ask . but iim jus goina feed
yoos guys with a little bit of details .. kayys ,

on 11th nov , arnd 4 plus , miie & a few of my drama babies was jusabt turh leave skuwl ..

yea , der was no sight of any car , ii cud SWEAR ..

but out of no whr , dis big red car came approachin us .. duperly fast ..

kant explain .. ifa , wad lyk tryina pull miie awae but unfortunately ,

ii was flunked awae .. ifa gort injured , her knees gort fractured .. & ii guess most

of yoos noe da rest .. yes indeed it hurts alot . everything happened so fast ..

da nxt thing ii knew , ii was landing in da ambulance . cool huhhs ? T.T

lols XD ii dunnoe wad's goin on arnd miie .. ii den started turh 4get little things

dat even a toddler can rmb .. sobs , dun wanna tok abt it ..

anywaes , ii've gort alot of company during my stae der.. thank yoos all so much ^^

& thank yoos all fer ur kind love & concerns ~

2008-11-01T16:19:00.007+08:00

Love can touch us one time

And last for a lifetime

And never let go till we're gone

Love was when I loved you

One true time I hold to

In my life we'll always go on

going shopping lata with mummy , after she finishes her work atr 7.30 ..

meeting her at her work place , plaza sin . lols XD stuck at hme agaen 2dae .

guess ii was jus too lazy turh go out .. dun wanna create anymire problems ..

woke up in such a late murniin ,

still so sleepy , ii kept on yawnin ..

den off turh my keyboard & stare at da screen ,

mummy called & yelled darn she's so mean ..

gotta finish my chores , damn its so tiring ..

den SYA nudge miie , sayin he's bored ..

hahahas [: well thank god !

cus at da same tyme so was ii ..

crapping is wae betta den cry cry cry ..

lols , he called & we blabber .

miss dose tymes wen we talked 2gether ..
he sang & crap around lyk a idiot ,

whining stoopidly lyk a crazy bustard ?!

dear god , whatever things dat ii kant face right now , ii jus

hope it will go awae .. as ii saed earlier , iim jus too weak .

moreover , ii almost confused my feelings , with da truth ..

2008-10-31T20:11:00.007+08:00

problems ? every1 hab dem .. every1 hab turh face dem .. but jus wen yoos tot

dat things are almost gettin betta , ur wrong .. other things came up & strike

yoos agaen .. ytd , on oct 30th abt 4 in da mid-murniin , ii was drowned with

my nightmares . trust miie , iiwas so very scared , dat ii cried . ii cried so hard ,

dat ii cud hardly stop my tears frm fallin . lyk da heavy rain . den ,

sum 'things' happened . my heart beat pumped so fast lyk as if iim facing

death . ii kant think of a word dat cud described my feelings dat nyte/murniin ..

ii hid under my blankey , dunnoe wad else turh do . since ii've owaes been

thinkin of yoos , ii tried turh give yoos a call .. thought dat maybe yoos

could console miie & make miie feel betta with ur words , lyk yoos

owaes do , dis tyme ii was wrong .. yoos seemed , different . ii hung up da

phone cus ii dun wanna make things worst between us . afta all this while ..

thought yoos were goina call back , but god .. darn it , unfortunately , ii was

so wrong agaen .. ii didnt hear anything frm yoos afta dat . jus a text

message frm yoos which turh miie it reads : ''he doesnt seem turh care ..''

*speechless* dunnoe wad else turh sae .

Dear ,

Maybe it’s my confusion ,
Maybe that’s what is causing this intrusion ..
I love you that I promise you ,
And this I just can’t do :
Hurting you , is something unbearable ,
It’s something that to me , is intolerable ..
I love you, but this fear inside ,
Is something I am unable to hide .
You hurting me ,
Is something I do not want to see ..
If I give you my heart ,
Will you simply rip it apart ??
Or will it stay yours forever more ??
Maybe it’s my confusion ,
That is causing this intrusion ..
I love you that I promise you .
But this fear inside ,
Is something that I cannot hide ...

What do you know ? You've done it again

With selfish words , you try to explain ..

I'm deeply sorry , for I cannot hear straight ..

Through all the bullsh*t , your words suffocate ..

Yea , I should have known better ,

Things could have been better ..

I want to just walk , walk right into your life

But please , one more favor : retrieve your blunt knife ..

For my back is still aching , my mind now infected

By the poison of words , your mouth has injected ..

You do your best to show me love

But you dont know what love is.
Fainting spells & Breaking Dawn.
These constituted my day today.
Problems are mostly left unsettled

God, I should have known better .. Why can't things just be better ?

2008-10-29T10:08:00.007+08:00

guess whr was ii in da middle of da nyte ytd ? hees [: walkin in da park .
yea , alone .. ii jus need sum tyme alone . rather den stayin at hme ,
listenin turh my brothers yellings & irritatin voices , ii walked maself
turh a nice & peaceful park .. jus wanna clear my mind & sum how try
turh get all my negative thinkings out .. well , if yoos ask miie , da park
was da right place turh talk-my-mind out .. ouhkayys , ii ran out of tissue
papers =.=" but at least it didnt rain last nyte . a fwen saed dat its bcus
god noes dat its a special dae fer miie & it means alot turh miie .

ii thank you alot fer being der ,

& all your lame jokes dat yoos share ..

ur dirty hands chased da cat awae ,

heyys , it loves miie & it stays !

ii didnt reali wanna spoil any mood ,

so ii jus sat der & stood ;

blindly laughin at almost everytiink yoos saed ..

its great dat ii hab yoos as my dad .

da floor where all da tissues were ,

iim nort reali sure ..

mayb ii shred dem as how iit was frm da start ..

its how pain it was in my heart .

ii kant think of a wae turh thank you ,

but ii appreciate it alot , ii reali do ..

so daddy , thank-you .

but owaes rmb ,

dat ''its da heart dat matters ..''

dear god , thank-you .. yoos made things so much easier fer miie
even wen at tymes ii did alot of bad sins . iim sorry fer all da wrongs dat
ii've done , & ii thankful enuf fer every loved ones dat yoos gave miie ~